argh.. damn fucked up now.. even after a bath.. ya..

woke up late today morning.. but managed to get to sch in time.. as he sends me to sch.. so later.. went for my econs paper.. smsed him to ask him can wait den we go eat after my paper.. as i know i will finish this paper quite earli.. as i knoe i wun knoe how to do..

after my paper.. read his sms.. and he said tt he at work le.. k fine.. ask him why cox he say he scare SP will check him.. no matter how many times i tell him is impossible.. he jux cant get it.. so i was angry.. he says he would wait for me tml or the day after or anything.. so wads the point.. my paper will not finish as earli as today.. so i smsed him.. tellin him why..

so.. as i throw my temper on him jux now.. i intended to go and find him for lunch.. so took a train down.. i feels tt i force him to meet me like tt la.. of some things i sms him.. so later reach amk le.. i did not wanna go to the shop.. waited outside some place..

waited for half an hr around 11 he came.. tellin me he need to finish doin a bike cox cust takin at 12.. so i say ok.. u go do.. actualli wanted to wait for him outside.. den he not realli happi and walk off.. so i went to wait for him at shop..

he walk himself and i just walk behind.. and of cox.. i went down all the way find him.. seein him walkin by himself.. cox i am not happi.. fine.. nvm..

and i am damn hungry at tt time.. nvm..

went to shop.. waited for him finish the bike le.. he dunno doin wad.. so later another cust came... and he need to help do his bike first.. so waited till 12+..

went over ask him wad time he will finish. he say take out this le den ok le.. so fine.. waited..

den we go eat.. so i got back my gastric problem.. i think he knows it.. but he cares? nah.. he later ask me wad i wan eat..

so after eatin.. went to have a smoke.. den we go off...

i say i wanna go cheers buy thing.. den he follow.. and he continue his way back to the shop.. till i stop him and say i goin home.. and he jux say " ok bye"

WADTHEFUCKIDOWRONG?

he DONT even sms me later..

ya.. maybe i should not even go down and find u at all in the first place.. haha.. mayb i am too stupid to think tt it be alright.. =) ya.. i am the one who give temper first.. so i gave in.. and go down to find u.. but.. wad i get in the end.. makin myself more angry.. not havin the mood to study at all..

jux dunno why i am in such a mood today.. things accumulated makin me more and more angry.. argh..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and he does not care.. maybe i'm not worth? i dunno..

maybe is just purely my own fault..